March 6, 2011
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I'm thinking about doing This Program. Nate wanted to a 10 day fast so maybe we'll just do this one together. Hhmmm.
Side note: I'm so thankful I'm not super fat anymore. I ran across a picture of myself at 297 lbs and almost peed my pants. Whoa.
For me, it's more than just about my appearance. Losing weight, eating well, working out, etc. helps me establish more balance in my life. I feel better emotionally, mentally, spiritually and physically when I am mobile and making good choices. I don't always (obviously) but I certainly do more often than I used to (also obvious).
Also, I will always carry with me the consequences of living a life without much self-discipline in regards to food. The stretch marks have faded, but they will always remain. My arms are smaller, but the extra skin will always remain. Things like that ... I've learned to embrace these things. It doesn't mean that I "like" them, but I view them as a reminder to never go back.
I'm also very fortunate to be married to a man that thinks I'm beautiful as I am. He is proud of me and the scars that I wear are not ugly to him. They are a symbol of how hard I have worked and how hard I continue to work on this battle with food and balance. He knows how I struggle, every single day, to overcome and rise above. To him, my fighting spirit overshadows any lifelong flaw I now bear.
Now that is beautiful.
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