May 21, 2011
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This and that. And some transparency.
Here's the sign Mazie and I put out for Nate on his last day of classes last week. So proud!
(summer classes start next week)
(Look! My bike is out and ready to go. We got a new bike trailer for the girls and I love it. We sprung for the 20" wheels to keep the kiddos from losing their hind ends on bumps and large objects. Not sure what large objects we'd be running over, but you never know.)
*ahem* So, here goes ..
I am noticing a few changes in my body (externally) since hittin' gym with more gusto in the mornings. I'm not thin, eh, but I'm not as big as a barn anymore. Three-hundy didn't look so good on me. I love working out not only because it improves my appearance, but because it makes me feel strong and focused. Working out is therapeutic in many ways.
Also, I'm working on establishing a "normal" eating lifestyle. I'll spare you the juicy details, but I'm currently seeing a nutrition therapist (um, they're expensive. so, if you are looking for a lucrative career and relish (heh, relish) talking about food and why it's nothing to be afraid of, then become one of those.) Striving to overcome a ten-year-old eating disorder is tough. I'm not even sure if tough is the correct word. How about maddening, frightening, frustrating, confusing and liberating? (all at the same time) Last week I wanted to throw in the towel, but Nate strongly encouraged me to keep up the good fight. Right now I'm not working on losing weight, I'm working on learning how to be balanced in my relationship with food. (Because it's really not about the food itself when it comes down to it. It's about the relationship that we have with the food.)
Not working toward losing the rest of this weight scares the bejeebus out of me! Nate laid it all out for me by saying that it's more advantageous for me to remain at this weight while overcoming the issues for a lifetime than to get thin now but still be dealing with this ED for a lifetime. Good golly, I love my Nate. He is going to make one excellent therapist ... I mean that.
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