Life lately:

• Nate went on a hiking trip this past weekend. I love it that he's rugged and outdoorsy ... it's inspiring. It was a long weekend for me and I had to work all day on Saturday ... I took the girls to a babysitter, my good friend Stephanie. She was the first non-family member to watch the girls for any length of time. She sent them home with clean diapers and had all of our stuff packed up and ready for me. It was so nice. Nate said he had a good time, but he was so tired. I'm not sure what's wrong with me, but I actually thought of asking him if I could go next time. What's happening to me?????????
• Mazie is now carrying on full conversations and has decided to start being in charge around here. Well, trying anyway. I'm teaching her about entitlement and respectful boundaries. The other day she said, "Mommy. Stop talking. I have something to say to you first."  Um ....
• Freya is still just crawling on her forearms or trying to walk. It's pretty cute. She wants to walk SO badly. She is teething right now and over the past few days hasn't eaten much, has slept a lot and has grown like three inches, I swear. She's all thinned out. She doesn't feel well and although I don't want my babes to feel sick, I do appreciate the extra cuddles.
• I hit the gym again this morning. I took last week off. I was so depressed and falling into emotional eating again. Big time. The bulimia is still under control though so I'm very thankful for that. I am going to meet with the nutritional therapist again within the next two weeks and I'm looking forward to knowing what the next step is. I read a quote this morning by Geneen Roth (author of some excellent books on eating issues. oh, and btw ... it's eating issues these days, not eating disorders. who knew?) "Weight (too much or too little) is a by-product. Weight is what happens when you use food to flatten your life. Even with aching joints, it's not about food. Even with arthritis, diabetes, high blood pressure. It's about your desire to flatten your life. It's about the fact that you've given up without saying so. It's about your belief that it's not possible to live any other way -- and you're using food to act that out without ever having to admit it." ~ Geneen Roth  Last week I was flattening my life ... this week I'm blowing it up.
• My birthday (which came and went) party is this weekend. I'm keeping it small this year ... just doing dinner at my parents' and then heading to Cerulean to hang out. We'll probably end up walking to back to our house after that. My parents will keep the girls. I'm looking forward to spending time with people I haven't seen in a while. Speaking of people, I'm getting so many things figured out. Balance, priorities, expectations ... you get my drift.
• Last night I was thinking about what I'm teaching my teensy girls and I decided that I want them to always feel the following things in this home: 1) respected 2) heard 3) safe.
• Well, I'm off to change a diaper and take my little loves out on the swings.