November 15, 2011
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I know this is cryptic and has nothing to do with the cleanse ... but man, do I hate running across things on Facebook I'd rather not be reminded of. I try to protect myself from people/comments/events, etc that bring up yuck, but it's not a fail-proof system. This morning I ran across some information and people I'd soon rather forget. Now my heart is wobbly and my mind is cluttered. I'm a rather sensitive girl.
How quickly I can go from feeling strong and healed to feeling weak and broken. It'll pass soon enough.
God has been fervently pursuing me for years ... placing me in positions where I've been given the beauty of change and freedom from the damage of my past (and freedom from my ex-husband). From Carlos striking up a conversation with me at the park which prompted our involvement with church to motherhood, to surrounding us (literally, within four blocks of one another) with other young parents who are seeking Him. He continues, over and over again to come to me. To show me that my past is history. To give to me, freely ... undeserved, precious gifts. My husband that loves me as Christ loves the church; unconditionally. My children that teach me so much about love. My strength to rise above who I once was and embrace I life I never thought possible. He is relentless with me. Relentless. I cannot express how beautiful my story has become to me. I used to be ashamed of my story, but really I just am a shining example of the power of Christ. He pulled me from the mire and placed me on solid ground. He just wouldn't leave me alone. He just wouldn't let me go. He loves me so much and I simply don't deserve it.
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the ol' FB will do that to ya!
i had a loosely similar experience recently, myself.
i know that this post was a bit melancholy, but mostly it made me smile for you.
the tones of faithfulness, hope, gratitude, and anticipation of the positive are undeniable.
@beanbeanthetraumaqueen - i agree with bean on the melancholy-but-made-me-smile-for-you comment. i thought the same thing. well actually my first thought was this is the least cryptic cryptic post ever. but then i had similar thoughts. stupid, facebook. that happens to me a lot over there too.
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