It's difficult for me to collect my thoughts when I'm run down and overwhelmed.
I'm sure I'm not alone in this?
Sleep around here has been hard to come by (teething, ear infections, insomnia ... you name it) and that always throws things out of whack.
This afternoon I asked Nate, "How do others Moms feel about this sort of thing? How do they not get frustrated or depressed by the consistent demands during a week like this?"
He assured me that a lot of Moms do get frustrated and feel defeated.
I guess I just assume they don't because I don't hear them complaining about it much and the ones they do complain, seem to complain about everything so I sort of write that off.
I will tell you, though ... pulling away from social networks (ie - Facebook and the like) and barely texting all week has helped. I need my world to be smaller. I need less distraction and more focus on my family. I'm the only Mommy these girls have and the only lady Nate has and I need to be present in the moment. Their moments. Our moments.
When my world becomes too big I have a difficult time giving this little family my best. In counseling yesterday we discussed that 'ignorance is bliss' and that allowing my thoughts, emotions, etc. to be bombarded by outside influences only clouds what is right in front of me.
So, I'm making my world a little smaller, setting my sights on the immediate and weeding out the distractions.
*****************
This is what I walked in on near the end of nap time the other day ...
(Notice how they are both wearing red? One solid, one polka dot. I oftentimes try to coordinate their outfits. 
)
Comments (2)
is Mazie saying "Christmas Star"? That's what I hear...and it makes perfect sense!
A little reassurance: you will find the balance. For all the moments. Both in the small world right before you, and big world out beyond...
You are most certainly not alone. And know that the older they get, the easier parenting gets. At least for now, in my experience. (= But I clearly remember the evenings when the babies were crying and I would just break down and cry, too. Or sit there, completely overwhelmed, asking God what I was supposed to do now. I like your idea of making your world smaller...that makes a lot of sense. I firmly believe you can't get through the early years of motherhood and not come out changed, for the better. You're smart about how you face your challenges...I think you're a stellar mother. Your daughters are blessed.
Comments are closed.