Lots of stuff going on it seems lately. Mostly good. Some bad. Mostly happy. Some sad.
Some very scary and surreal.

I've been pondering on the following:
Don't take my health for granted.
Care less about the cleaning and more about the playing.
Hold on to those I love a little tighter.
Work out for clarity of mind, to set a good example and to feel good .. the hot bod will follow.
Never take for granted even that which seems trivial.

I'll write more later. I have more videos and pics to post. I know!
For now I'm off to another series of Recovery/Growth groups ... because there's always some area I can improve on.

I'm feeling very, very satisfied and pleased with my parenting lately. I just work so hard to be consistent and patient and I LOVE it when I see the fruits of my labor.
Even though I sometimes throw up my hands with tears in my eyes (like when Mazie went through that "I'm scared and don't want to sleep anymore" phase) I am so thankful that the Lord continues to grant me clarity (eventually) and strength. We have an organized, cheerful home. My children feel safe and loved. Naps and bedtimes are (mostly) a happy time. Freya has a good routine that flexes depending on our day. Mazie walks herself to time-out when she's disobeyed (although not always quietly) and Freya has learned to sleep anywhere and both my ladies are so, so happy.
I don't always get it right. I'm not claiming to be perfect. I just use common sense, pray often and love with all my heart.

Now, if I could just figure out how to get more sleep ...

We're going out tonight!! I was really hoping that a particular pair of jeans would fit (because we all know that what I look like is the utmost important thing to me ...), but they are still a little tight so we'll see. I might wear a dress. I know, right?
I asked Nate what he was wearing and he just sort of gave me a blank stare. I told him I would look through his closet and pick something out for him ... he gets out more than I do so wearing real clothes isn't as exciting for him as it is for me apparently.
Yay. So excited.

Also, Zumba was great this morning as always AND I believe I'll be running the 5k on July 4. The first time I was training for a 5k I left my ex-husband and the second time I was training I got pregnant. We'll see what happens this time ... kinda nervous ...

Mazie reading her "Good Night book" followed by a nose pick

I love the snow so much. Don't judge.
Also, I either have the stomach flu or I'm pregnant.
I blame Nate for the latter.

This morning I was reminded to be thankful for what I have, even when the day has been a rough one. There are some dear people going through a heartbreaking experience right now and getting an update about them was just the slap in the face that I needed this morning.
Get a grip, Susan. So I have a sore neck, the laundry is behind and a shower keeps eluding me today. So, what? It's all about perspective and mine quickly changed once I thought about the positive blessings God has bestowed upon me. Even in the negative, the positive outshines ... if I make it so.
And for the record, my husband and daughters are my greatest treasure. I can't believe God has entrusted them to me.

I'm simply a girl that has come so far yet has so much more growing to do. I am in love with God's promise that he is not finished with me yet. 'Cause, uh, I certainly ain't done.

Our new bedtime feeding/pumping schedule, er, routine worked out perfectly last night. I LOVE it when a plan comes together. If you want to know more about it, just message me and I'll explain. I don't feel like writing it all out if no one really cares.
And now that both girls are in bed by 7:30 p.m. I can resume my active social life. ie - cocktail parties, dinner theater ... you know ... all those things ...

Nate had the car on Friday so I walked to Zumba using our new double stroller.
I love that thing.

 

EDIT: Apparently I made this post around 3 a.m. while I was up pumping?!? Wow. I am so sleep deprived ... I don't even remember doing this. I have all 100 oz of my milk collected to donate so I am going to stop the night pumps soon. Oh, sweet sleep I have missed you so. Right now my sleep routine looks like this:
10 - bed
2 or 3 - pump
5 or 6 - feed Freya
7:30 - wake up
It's been rough, but worth it. So many little babies will have food now. I went from not having enough milk for Mazie to having TOO much milk for Freya. Having more than enough to give away means so much to me. So much.
Did I mention that I'm tired?

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Mazie coloring a Valentine's Day card for Daddy
followed by an attempt to consume a mysterious substance

Sisters

Mazie calls this book her 'Jesus Loves Me this I Know Book'
It's Samson's favorite ...